Loss of identity
Okayyyyy so I have no identity, no passion, no hobbies, no job so I have no source of income/money to go and do things… please don’t get me wrong I LOVE my girls with all my heart and I have LONGED to be a mom for so long… but I really don’t have anything else going for me. I’m in the process of leaving their dad after a really abusive relationship of 3 years and the majority of that time working a very part time job in between being a SAHM. I’m trying to get a job but not many places are responding to my apps or even reaching back out to me after an interview. I don’t have much useful experience or skills and I can’t go back to school it’s too expensive and I don’t have the smarts and brain and motivation to go since there isn’t anything that peeks my interest. I’m almost 6 weeks PP and I just feel blah, lonely, and just plain empty. Tonight is the first night postpartum my girls will be at their dad’s for two nights three days since it’s Father’s Day weekend. And I can’t even imagine what I’d do… I hardly have any money to go out by myself or with the two friends I have. I’m uncomfortable having people over at my parents since my dad is a bit of jerk toward me whenever I have any company over… and with gas prices in the US I can’t afford to go to either friends house…
Anyone else relate?