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Baby Daddy Drama

Just want to be understood and heard

My daughter is now 2 months old. I planned a home birth but was rushed to the hospital due to complications. She was held there for 48 hours and I was released after 24. It was his weekend to get his oldest child, they are around the age of 8. I had her on a Thursday, he got his eldest on a Friday. He had taken off work Thursday and went back to work that next Thursday. I was left all alone the second night my child was born because he was tending to his first born. I understand that he wanted to see her, but I felt like shes old enough to understand and that he should have arranged to get her the next weekend. I needed him in that moment. We came home Saturday around midnight. He had taken his first born back early. Me and my child slept on the couch the first night, I was so afraid to even sleep because what if she stopped breathing or something. Im a first time mom. He slept in our bedroom. And went I say slept, he didn't wake up until 11 to 12 in the afternoon. This went on until he went back to sleep. I asked if he would bring the spare matress in the living room and he said he didn't see why he had to get up if I already was. He finally agreed after I basically begged him. I wanted him to just get a glimpse of what I had been doing since day one. I havent went back to work due to an agreement. I'd take care of her and anything that I needed to pay for her and he would pay the bills. Now, I pay my own personal bills and ive always gotten the groceries and prepared the meals kept the house running. Ive still been the one getting groceries. I went through postpartum depression really bad the first month, and still struggle with it some. At 3 weeks postpartum I was screamed at and yelled in the face because I didn't have dinner cooked and he expected it and that he had to spend 70.00 on food for me, him and his oldest. Idk how you spend 70.00 on 1 pizza for us and beans, cheese and rice for your oldest. Since then ive been screamed at multiple times, he packed his bags because at 4 weeks the house was messy and I was a lazy fu@@. I walk on egg shells. He went to his friends pool party over the weekend. Was gone over night. He screamed because i left a light on and then threw all of the clothes out of the draws looking for his shorts and said he would tear this room apart. I planned on going to see my family and just didnt want to be around him. I chose my peace. My cars in the shop right now so I was home all weekend just me and the baby. When he came home I didn't have dinner cooked, but it was the weekend I thought I would get a day off ya know he got 2 . I went through all my clothes this weekend with a baby strapped on my chest, got the kitchen organized, ordered groceries, did the laundry. All in 2 days. Might not sound like much but having a velcro baby is a lot. He gets home and I asked him to shut the gate I made so the dog cant get out. He gets outside and is like "im not going to do this sh!$ every day its an inconvenience to me and I didn't even want the fu&@ing dogs. " well buddy I have them so screw you it takes less then 5 mins to open and close the gate. That just ruined my whole afternoon. Then he sits down turns on the TV
I got the baby to sleep and hand her to him. He gets a phone call and answers it she wakes up because he wasnt holding her the way I told him he had to
So I get her to sleep again. And she wakes up. She only want me to hold her and will cry if she realizes its not me . He was even wearing my shirt.... he asked the first time if I was cooking. I said as soon as im done putting away my clothes. I had only 1 basket left then she woke up. Anyways the third time im trying to get her to sleep, she nurses and so I have to completely sit there. He says "have you decided what you're cooking" I said "was going to make tacos but you have to wait or you can cook" he then get mad and says I was home all day he didn't understand stand why I didn't have dinner cooked. I was like um its the weekend I thought I had an off day. Then he keeps saying im lazy and that he would do it if he were home. Like he could handle a baby and other stuff. 🤣 so why did I end up cooking dinner with a baby strapped on my chest while he has a beer watching TV. Like he wasnt like this until she came. He doesnt want to be around her, or hold her. He says hey in the morning, hey when he gets home and goodnight. He might hold her a total of 4 to 6 hours a week if that. Im so tired but I feel like I cant leave or that means ill have to share her with this horrible man. He yelled at me for getting uo in the middle if the night and changing her diaper because she cried (sje had gass) and told me that I could just wait to change her diaper and if I was going to go in the other room. She would wake up if I did all that. He screamed at me and called me a fu@$ing bi@#$ because she woke him up. I want out, but I dont want him to ever see her again because of the way he is, I cant trust he wont treat her like that. I hate him for it. I wish I would have never told him I was pregnant and just left. He wanted me to have an abortion anyways. Like I wish I could just run away and never look back. I'd rather have a dead beat dad then dead beat partner.