I’m in my mid-30s and I feel like I have completely lost myself. I cannot stay consistently happy, I overspend for dopamine, I’m scared to make new friends, I can’t keep my house or anything together anymore. I want to just sit in my bed and stare at my phone to dissociate. I’ve always been a busy bee and have always had people ask how I always keep it so together. Now I am the complete opposite. I cannot get out of this hole I am in for the past year. I don’t feel like I can talk to anyone about this because none of my friends are on the spectrum and they are just not close enough to talk to them deeply and then also I hate bothering people with my problems. Any advice on how to get out of this? I’ve struggled my whole life but never fully burnt out like this until now and I just don’t know how much life I have left In me at this point.
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So sorry for what you are going through. Been in your place lately with so many of the same symptoms!! I am slowly trying to crawl out of it but man it’s so hard!!!
Here is what has helped me. Praying. Cognitive behavioral therapy. Depression and anxiety meds and adjustment of doses.
Calm app for meditation and EMDR music while falling asleep.
Music.
Coffee occasionally.
Having a part time job requiring me to get up early few days a week and having responsibility to look after vulnerable population for work that feels my cup with pride and joy.
You are welcome to reach out via dm. Totally get the feeling of not wanting to bring everyone down with you and isolating self and struggling to survive in silence.
I pray and hope you find your self again soon. This shall pass too. 🫂🙏🏾

You not alone. 🩷
We are not alone ❤️

Im so sorry you’re going through this. ❤️ Please know you’re not a burden, and you don’t have to face this alone. What you’re describing sounds like more than just feeling overwhelmed, and I really hope you’ll reach out to your doctor or a mental health professional because you deserve support.
Take things one small step at a time and be kind to yourself. Also, when you said you don’t know how much life you have left in you, that concerned me. If you meant you’re feeling unsafe or thinking about harming yourself, please tell someone you trust or seek help right away.
And if you just need someone to listen or want to make a new friend, feel free to message me anytime. I’d genuinely love to be friends. ❤️