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Stay At Home Mamas 🤍

Advice

Ok this will be somewhat long but please read and advise/what you’d do in my shoes.
My fiance and I have now been together for exactly 1 year now. Trying to make this as long story short as I can; when we met, I had 1 child, he had 3. He always says “you knew I had 3, you signed up for this” which yes I did. I was happy to at that. I love my fiance to death, and his kids. Now, we found out I was pregnant and skip forward, I birthed our baby 2 months ago. He will be 3 months in 2 weeks. There’s a lot of back story with the blended family stuff but again, long story short… I have really struggled with it all. I treat his kids wonderfully and we have all blended so well. The kids love me, my son, and their new brother. I have lost it a few times with how hard things can be and just get so overwhelmed but always come out on the other side. Today, things were just really hard. My son is 3 years old, then I have my 2 month old, his 7 year old, his 8 year old, and 12 year old. I am the one who grocery shops, cooks the food, does 7 people’s laundry, cleans everyone’s rooms/house, making sure bathrooms are stocked, cleaning up messes all summer long with 5 kids while trying to maintain a newborn and take care of myself. Try to do things for myself, do things my fiance needs me to do. I am a stay at home mom. He gave me that blessing. Now, I had a meltdown tonight and said how hard this all is and I just am sick of the constant messes, everyone in my face following me around all day, just sooo overwhelmed and a lot on my plate. He has a very demanding and difficult job as well and I get that. That’s why I always try to handle the household and do. Tonight he called me while out and started going in on me about how it shouldn’t be this hard and shouldn’t always be drama/a crisis. “I will say it. My job is harder. Why is it so easy for me but so hard for you. What’s the difference there? I was with them for 2 hours yesterday while you ran out and everything was fine and simple.” Yes, you’re the dad. They are good for you because you are the man of the household. And the biological father. I said, well… the difference is that I birthed a child and am 10 weeks PP. I remember very clearly one day a few weeks back, I ran out somewhere by myself for a while and he sat in the recliner looking super mad and stressed and when I asked what was wrong… he said he was just “overwhelmed and just a lot going on” with having all 5 kids here… hmmmm.

This has been his talks to me so many times. “Why is this so hard for you” then comes back to say “I know you’re 26, have a newborn, a toddler and 3 kids that you took on and I know it can be a lot but i just don’t understand why it’s this hard for you.”

THEN WENT AROUND TO SAY “IF THIS WAS A HARD JOB THEN PEOPLE WOULDNT GET PAID $15 AN HOUR TO DO IT. EVERYONE CAN DO IT.” !!!!!!!!!!!

What the actual fuck do I do here… please tell me your transparent, honest, advice.