Feeling detached / numb about my pregnancy

Good morning everyone, I’m a first time mom to be, due Jan 29th. I’ll be 13 weeks tomorrow. I just had my second sonogram beginning of my second trimester. I’ve been feeling very depressed and kind of detached from my womb/baby. I’m not sure if it’s because of resent the father or myself for how things turned out the way it did before the baby is even born. I already made a choice not abort. But I’m struggling to be happy about this. I don’t know how to be. My family and friends are all excited and gleaning with joy but there’s no excitement in me. Inside I want to scream. I feel numb. And in a way I feel love bombed and cheated out of a happy pregnancy. I’m very upset with myself because I feel like my baby will grow up without a father because I have to protect my peace. I found out I’m the “other” woman, I’m basically a secret. So I feel like my pregnancy is based on lies instead of real love. And it’s killing me to pretend I’m happy when I’m truly not. I know the baby can feel everything I feel. I don’t know what to do, where to go or who to talk to. Church is very judgemental I wouldn’t dare say what I’m truly going through, and family can be very hypocritical and overprotective given the circumstances. All I know is I’m not bringing this baby into a two parent home like I thought I would. And I honestly just feel like another statistic. I’m adding to the generational curse instead of breaking it.

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Decided not to cut tongue tie - have I made the right call?

My baby is nearly 6 weeks old and we had an appointment for his tongue tie at 4 weeks, we decided not to cut it.
Context-
He could not breastfeed at all, and lost a lot of weight in the first 3 days however we switched to bottles and he now gains weight brilliantly, some milk comes out the sides of his mouth but it’s never an insane amount and he drinks his bottle without any fuss.
He has a posterior tongue tie which the clinician said is very far back in his mouth. He scored 6/10 and 7/14 on the assessment.
They said to us that healing on a tongue tie this far back would be more difficult and it’s at a higher chance of bleeding after the division which obviously made us nervous. They said it was up to us, and we decided because he is gaining weight on his bottles that we wouldn’t cut it. But now I’m questioning my decision.
Will his posterior tongue tie cause troubles later on? I’ve been told it can affect weaning, speech. He is quite a fussy baby sometimes and now I’m like oh is this because of the tongue tie?
Has anyone not cut their babies tongue tie and they’ve been ok?
Subsequently has anyone had their babies tongue tie cut after the 6 week mark because of other issues they’ve run into?
Advice appreciated x

Questions

I'm a first time mom and I'm just wondering at what age did you let your baby cry themselves to sleep my mom says that I can but I'm not sure I hate hearing him cry

Night rage

My toddler is 4 and has been awake since 2am (now 5) I just got so frustrated with them for not sleeping I shouted and hit the bed with my hand which immediately made them start crying the guilt I felt was immense at my outburst. So extra comforting apologised explained I'm tried and sorry and love them so much and listed all the things I love their family love etc and gave cuddles and head strokes.
I'm a single mum and struggling with no help or not as much as I actually need and if I'm honest I'd be someone who NEEDED night help but it never came. I just feel so guilty for what I just did. I am a general gentle parent but I will have outburst of just pure rage and I feel so awful like I'm going to damage my child.

AITA? My husband chooses to go to sleep at 2/3am and then is exhausted the rest of the day for us.

He does some mornings of waking up with our baby and I do the rest but I don't give him leeway because we are both adults and making choices. I go to bed around 11.30/midnight knowing that our bubba wakes between 6-7am so we are both making choices. I am tired too but I just deal. It would be different if he started work early in the mornings or had really late finishes but it's all about priorities mate. For context our baby is 10 months and sleeps through the night from 8pm sometimes with an occasional wake up but mainly sleeps through.

I think I may have accidentally created a bad night sleeping routine with my baby. Can I still change it? HOW?

So, my 1 month old baby is mostly sleeping during the day. But her deep sleep is from morning to midday. The last week, we have been having troubles with her sleeping normally at night and she's been uncomfortable and on/off crying loud as well, which sometimes I am unsure if she's just tired or colic. As a first time mum with only husband as my support, IDK what to do. Like last night, she was crying and sleeping from around 11pm to 4am on/off. She sleeps for like 15mins then cry for almost an hour and repeat. At first, we tried burping her and she was not doing it. She managed to burp but then still cried as if she's uncomfortable.

Having PPD&A also did not help. Everyday I only get 3-4 of sleep (interrupted) they said sleep when the baby sleeps but I just can't as when she's sleeping in the morning, that's when my mind starts thinking about a lot of things.

When will the sleeping get better? 🥺 I want to be a happy and jolly mum for her but doing it tired and sleepless is hard. 😞

**Also, what do I do to lessen her grunts during sleep? sometimes she sounds like she's wheezing and grunting and wakes me up at night. HV said it's normal but just keeps me up and just makes me watch her sleep.

Loud sleeping baby

My baby is 8 weeks old and is so loud and noisy at night. I’m getting about 3-4 hours a night because my body wakes me up as soon as it hears him upset. Is there anything anyone recommends or any ear plugs I could use to take the edge off of it?