I just don't think im meant for motherhood.
I had my first child when I was 23, Mentally ill and undiagnosed. And I really struggled. But I had a village so it wasn't so bad. Me and his Dad split before he was 1 but he still helped me so much and we co raised him till a few years ago. Our son now lives with him the majority of the time.
Since then I've been diagnosed and worked on my self. I can control my mental illness a good majority of the time.
I thought I could handle having a baby. And after lots of loss we had our baby last year. And I've managed really well till the last few days. His whinging, crying and screaming has been relentless. And I do manage about 6/7 hours before I feel so overwhelmed I could cry. By the time Dad's home from work I'm ready to just go to sleep.. I just feel like I'm doing a really bad job and I don't have a Villiage this time either. And I don't know the point of this post I just needed to vent ❤️
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Oh bless you. I hope venting has helped even a little. Know that you're not alone in feeling overwhelmed by the relentlessness that is motherhood. I hope you can talk and be supported by your partner. It can seem like such a lot when you're on your own for long periods of the day. Hope you are getting support for your mental illness too. It can be like having an extra job trying to manage it! Here to talk x