I just need to get this out

mine was the exact same, we stayed to together for maybe 3/4 months after he cheated a lot but we argued so much over small things, i think it was because i had a bit of hatred towards him for it, unconsciously really. It got bad and i couldn’t help but think every time he was out he was doing it.. he did nothing for about 3 months and i thought we were through it, then he did it again when our son was 2 months old, i wish i had left earlier! I really don’t think many change once they’ve done it, It’s now so much better and we healthily co-parent with boundaries. It’s obviously completely up to you but the feeling never goes away, it comes up in arguments all the time and you always have a voice in your head worrying about it. Mine also showered me in love when i said about leaving, it’s literally just to make you stay and then within a week goes back to exactly what it was like, need to look past that

Came here to say it’s okay to leave him when he’s constantly being disrespectful and disgusting towards you it’s completely breaking your trust. But my husband now doesn’t do anything like that ever he’s a video game nerd I’ve never seen him be sneaky once towards me. He raises my first born like his own, allows me to be a stay at home mom and never work and this whole pregnancy never once told me no about what I want lol. I’m really just saying don’t be scared to go and never settle for someone who could do that to you. Some men are like toddlers they’re texting your boundaries to see how much you’ll put up with and react. I hope you figure everything out 🥺

Another man probably won’t do it and if he does you leave his ass. There are loyal men in the world

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