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Mommas in their 20’s 🥳

Shall I leave my partner?

God I need to rant. This might not make any sense I’m just going to type what I’m thinking. Bit of background, I’m 24 and my partner is 27, we fell pregnant after dating 3 months and then moved into together just before I gave birth. Everything was going swimmingly until that point, but since then I’ve had post partum depression, I’ve had a stalker, I found my partner sexting another girl, he found a somewhat flirty message on my phone and my partner has since been diagnosed with depression. He complains I don’t clean up enough, which I hold my hands up, I should do more. But I am the constant parent. Everyday during the week and weekends, I wake up during the nights for our little one , I wake up for her every morning and he gets to lay in ( when he’s not working) I look after her whilst he does football every weekend and then goes to the pub, I take her out on my own, I am the constant. He rarely has to look after our kid on his own and when he does, he goes straight to his nans because he can relax whilst she fusses and sees to the baby. Just recently, I went to an outdoor cinema/ party for the afternoon/ evening. My partner was at the football and went to the pub, so his aunt watched our baby. He got to theirs at 7-8 o’clock and then stayed until 10:30 to watching the boxing, so already her schedule was interrupted. I got a call on my way home I could hear our baby screaming in the background, he was having a meltdown saying he couldn’t cope and she wouldn’t settle. As I walked in the door she was screaming her head off and he said he’s never parenting on his own again. He had her for 1 hour that day. I understand he has depression but come on. My partner is off work at the moment for his mental health and has been for the last 1-2 months so he’s been around constantly. Still, I do all the night shifts, I wake up to feed her, I get her dressed ( because he doesn’t know what to put her in apparently, because it’s sooo hard????) I do it all. Tonight our baby was struggling to settle, and he was just laying there trying to get off to sleep. I was knackered too I had no sleep the night before, he said I’m tired too you’re not the only one. I said under my breath, I’ll sort her out then. This then led to an argument- apparently, according to him, waking up for babies during the night is ‘normally a mum thing to do’. I was honestly gobsmacked. I then asked him ok what’s the dad’s job then? He had no answer. I’m honestly just so drained of this relationship but I moved away from family to be with him, and I can’t go back I don’t have anywhere but here. If I had a place to go i would’ve left a long time ago because I feel like I’m not being respected enough for being a mum. I never get a break, even when I do I feel like I’m not being respected enough for what I do as a mum. And even for example, it’s my girls 1st birthday party coming up. I have planned it ALL, every single bit. He ordered the cake ( I asked him to do this) Because apparently party planning is stressful, when I was sorting the food out to order, his words ‘wow this is all so stressful’ - honestly I could’ve slapped him because he’s not done a single thing. Don’t get me wrong he absolutely loves our daughter to death but omg I just am sick and tired of being the constant, I feel so unrespected. Do I leave him? Or am I being unreasonable? I understand he has been suffering with his mental health, but at what point does it go past that and just pure selfishness?