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England

Vent/ need advice

Over the past two months since giving birth, I've been struggling with mild postpartum anxiety and depression, and it's been incredibly difficult. I have no family or close friends in the UK, so my support system is mainly my partner and his mum.
Since our baby was born, I've taken on almost all of the childcare. My partner had five days of annual leave instead of paternity leave, but even then the support was minimal. I do nearly all feeds, nappy changes, and most household chores. I've repeatedly asked for more help, even with simple things like washing bottles, sterilising equipment, or holding the baby while I do chores, but I almost always have to ask. He rarely takes initiative.
Five days ago, I finally told him how unhappy and overwhelmed I feel. I explained that it often feels like he's still living as though he has no responsibilities at home. He regularly goes out drinking with friends or attends football matches, while I spend most of my time caring for our baby. When I struggle to keep up with the house because of my low mood and exhaustion, he criticises me rather than helping.
During the conversation, instead of acknowledging how I'm feeling, he became defensive and argued that because he works, he shouldn't have to help more. When I suggested small ways he could support me, such as preparing a nighttime feed, he dismissed my concerns and shifted the blame onto me. I felt unheard and overwhelmed, so I walked away to avoid a bigger argument.
Since then, he hasn't spoken to me for five days. He has not acknowledged my exhaustion, anxiety, or depression, and I have been crying every day. Meanwhile, he continues to spend time with friends as though nothing has happened. I'm starting to feel that he doesn't care about me, and I've even considered leaving with the baby. However, I have nowhere else to go and very limited money while on maternity pay. I feel isolated, unsupported, and unsure of what to do next.