Am I the only one who thinks they might not survive breastfeeding

I'm legit struggling with it like im gonna have a breakdown as it's alot I'm breastfeeding then having to pump to fill up 50ml bottle

It's very hard work, but hopefully it gets better and you get used to it. They do have growth spurts and it feels like they are on the boob all the time. What helped with my first was cosleeping. Only way I could get some rest. This time round I am not sure yet as I am still pregnant.

It does feel impossible in those early days and weeks and you are not alone. What I would say is it does get easier. I bf my first for over a year (and am about to have my second) and I was exactly where you were at the beginning. When the baby is trying to establish your supply they feed SO much and it feels relentless but they’re doing what they should be doing. Lucy Webber feeding support on Instagram has loads of great advice around latch and positioning, as well as just lots of reassurance around what is normal. Do ask for a feeding assessment if you’re worried or in lots of pain too.
You’re doing a wonderful thing for your baby, despite it being so hard, so you should feel proud. Having something to look forward to during the relentless feeds helped me, like a show I’m excited to watch or my favourite snack. I hope that helps, it really is so hard and you are not alone in that.