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I looked at his phone.

Since I got pregnant, my partner has been very secretive with his phone. Before, he was fine with me looking over his shoulder when he uses his phone but recently when I try to ask him who he was messaging, he would just put his phone away. There is this online friend that he started playing video games with during my pregnancy. They would play until after midnight so sometimes I would ask him if she was really just a friend and he would say im just being a paranoid jealous. I thought maybe I was but the thought of him cheating remained at the back of my mind.

Last night, I was in so much pain, and barely able to move at all. Meanwhile he was just stuck on his phone, said nothing at all, didnt even ask how I was doing.

I woke up around 2 am and he was asleep, his phone was near me and his game was on so his phone was unlocked. For the first time ever, I looked at his phone without him knowing. Looked at messages and i saw him texting his friend with I miss you. He also said 'I like you sorry just have to say it' and the last message being 'i could have woken you up by talking dirty to you' . One thing that irks me with his texts was it always ends with x with her but never with me or anyone else.

I know or I believe he hasnt physically cheated on me but this level of emotional cheating made me realise I was right all along. This is why he hasnt cared about me or my wellbeing since I gave birth, its because he likes this friend.