What The Actual F***
Is anyone else beyond exhausted with everything and everyone?
I’m a single mom, once again, except now me and BD live together (FM-healing).
I work full time as a receptionist at a post acute rehab for seniors, which should be the easiest thing in my life, but is actually the absolute worse, because the nurses are miserable and rude, so are the patients, and I am the punching bag.
I decided this year that I was going to sign back up for school, so now I’m in an accelerated program that feels like hell. Not to mention that I decided to sign myself up for the board, because I thought it would be a chance for me to make friends and be around like-minded go-getters, just to be the person who carries everyone’s weight.
I never get to see my baby, except for at night time, and by then I am emotionally and physically exhausted from the day that the last thing I want to do is sit on the floor and play cars with him, which makes me feel like the worse mom ever. Did I mention, I’m still in love with his dad?
Ten, Sixteen, and Twenty-five year old me dreamed of this life for so long, but never knew this is what I was asking for. Sometimes I wish I could just disappear, and sometimes I wonder if anyone would even notice.
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I absolutely understand hun. It is so very exhausting. I am also a single mom, working and going to school and my kids have been having a lot of issues at school to the point I get called up to the school every day and I had to move my schedule around at work just to try and be available when they call me up to the school. And then my daughter gets the school to call the cops on me and the cops called CPS. All because she's mad she isn't getting her way when she throws a fit and doesn't like that I don't bow down to her. So now I have that to deal with too. And my youngest son's dad just called to talk to him today just to tell him he is going to be a big brother. Which is stupid to me because he doesn't even take care of our son. And it all just piles up over and over and over again. I'm sorry you're dealing with all of that hun. Feel free to message me if you need someone to talk to.
You’re not a bad mom. You sound like me . Spread to thin. Burnt the f*ck out. I completely understand I have two kids . 10 month old . Still won’t sleep through the night never does . Only naps on me. A crib is like a fighting war . 3 year old autism. Doesn’t walk . Meltdowns. I feel like shit all the time. Struggle to sit on the floor play with my kids . Your not a bad mom. You’re burnt out carrying a heavy load just like me . You’re not alone . Iv been struggling with postpartum depression still 10 months postpartum I’m not a bad mom either . It’s just at times I feel like it’s not gonna get better
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Hi please can someone relate or give me a word of advice? I am a mom of 3 under 3 and live in the UK since 5 years so I don't have many friends yet like my husband who grew up here and has his family here too. It might be a little exaggerated but I feel like so often he has someone to invite him to go to the pub at night (men evening), to stay out til 2 AM dancing (with his mates in a men only event) and just now today he is out with his sister all day cause she took him to Thorpe Park for his birthday (delayed) and they're having a blast. Besides that he goes to the stags of his friends and to their weddings too. Because we have 3 little ones it's very hard or impossible to leave them with a babysitter in order for me and my husband to go out together for the day and his mum takes them every now and then but it wouldn't be enough time for us to travel as long as he can if I am with the kids. As well, even though he said that he is more than happy to stay with the kids so I can go out and have fun with my friends it's not possible because here the problem is that all my friends are basically my husband's friends' wives who also all have children but they are not fans of adult fun such as going out, doing something active or crazy, they only ever really meet up together with their little ones and are happy with being a mom 24/7 whereas I feel grief for the youthful spirit inside me. I am only 23 and don't feel settled at all. Inside I feel like I want to dance all night through, I want to drink, to chat about hilarious things and laugh, to go on rides with my friends or even husband and feel so stuck and sad.
It's not my husband's fault but literally every time he is out like Today the day starts by me being happy for him from my heart and by the end of it feeling lots of resentment and cold towards him because I feel reminded of something that only he can have...
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am i wrong ?
i bring toys for my son to play with when he goes to his dad house .. i only have 1 child . am i wrong for putting up his toys i bring when other kids come over . due to them bringing there own toys and not sharing with my son . is it fair ? or am i trippin . my son toys in predominantly the toys being played with .. but after i lost my job i can’t just buy my son shit like i use too ? am i over reacting . or
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Please help... are my feelings wrong?
I'll make this short, my fiancee does nightshift I don't ask much from my him im always the one taking care of our son, cleaning, making food, ect. So he has nothing to worry about when hes off my frustration is today I needed to go to town and he got up earlier then normal 3:00 and he said he would be awake because he cant go back to sleep, so I asked if he could take me to town because I had errands to run and I really needed to do them because I would have absolutely no time the rest of the week. And he started complaining he didn't want to go anywhere because he wanted rest and basically a day off... and so yes apart of me kinda got a bit upset because damn... I would love a day off actually, no responsibilities from our child from cleaning cooking ect running errands, but why is it he gets a day off? Why does he get absolutely no responsibilities besides staying in his room playing video games and relaxing, I haven't gotten that kinda rest since our sons been born my relax time is at night when he goes to bed.. but even then I have to do dishes ect reset. Then when I brought it up to him he just shut down the conversation and I wasn't being hostile I was just genuinely asking like I also work a full time job like he does and I get home and do stuff, why is it I ask one thing which is to be taken to town and it becomes a whole issue....
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Wish I had someone to talk to and hit the library with🥲
That’s it. That’s the post. Very much feeling sorry for myself😂 blame the rain
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Motherhood has made my life miserable. Will it ever change?
My baby is 8 months old, has not slept through the night once yet with multiple wake ups. Contact naps during the day. I’m EBF the baby. I get no time to myself. I have a partner who does the bare minimum most of the time. I’m so tired mentally and physically. I don’t want to do this anymore. I regret becoming a mom. My relationship with my partner will never be the same. As now I have so much resentment towards him that will never go away. I ruined my life.
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What The Actual F***
Is anyone else beyond exhausted with everything and everyone?
I’m a single mom, once again, except now me and BD live together (FM-healing).
I work full time as a receptionist at a post acute rehab for seniors, which should be the easiest thing in my life, but is actually the absolute worse, because the nurses are miserable and rude, so are the patients, and I am the punching bag.
I decided this year that I was going to sign back up for school, so now I’m in an accelerated program that feels like hell. Not to mention that I decided to sign myself up for the board, because I thought it would be a chance for me to make friends and be around like-minded go-getters, just to be the person who carries everyone’s weight.
I never get to see my baby, except for at night time, and by then I am emotionally and physically exhausted from the day that the last thing I want to do is sit on the floor and play cars with him, which makes me feel like the worse mom ever. Did I mention, I’m still in love with his dad?
Ten, Sixteen, and Twenty-five year old me dreamed of this life for so long, but never knew this is what I was asking for. Sometimes I wish I could just disappear, and sometimes I wonder if anyone would even notice.
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