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Is it wrong for me to think this?

I can’t wait for my kids to get older. I have an almost 5 year old and a 3 year old. I wish they would hurry up and grow up. I feel like I’m taking care of 2 drunk guys all day long and making sure they don’t die. My oldest has horrible tantrums that he scratches me, bites me, hits me or throws and breaks things. My youngest and him fight all the time. They also need me for a lot of stuff still. I’m exhausted with them I’ve lost myself in motherhood. Even when I try to have breaks whoever is taking care of them I worry if they put something in their mouth or something else could’ve happened that the person may not say or saw. I’m tired my bf doesn’t help me and if he does at times not like I would like or throw it in my face. I don’t trust day cares and I know what I got my oldest is a lot to handle that Im worried someone doesn’t have the patience. I just want them healthy I’m also always worried if they ate enough did that sleep good, it’s a never ending worry that I hope once they get older stuff they can do on there own would help me. I’m just not enjoying this stage that they are in the always falling and fighting the bruises stress me out too. I’m loosing it I have been for a while.