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CHEATED ON MY HUSBAND AND HAPPY I DID

my husband is the definition of a bipolar ego centered god complexed angry rude narcissist with money .. so of course he thinks it’s ok … who hid his true colors and over time the little tiny mistakes I kept looking past turned into clear habits ..he’s a liar , verbally abusive, and constantly trying to make me feel bad for his mistakes (example :I cheated because your hair wasn’t done after you gave birth ) ( only the kids should eat because your baby fat isn’t budging) and just flat mean..and no Iam not using the word because it’s popular. My marriage got so bad that I went digging and asked his ex wife why she cheated on him because he always had a sob story of how he got cheated on and how it’s hard for him to believe I truly love him (but my dumb ass still married him thinking he’d change that perspective on love smh I know) but I had a feeling he wasn’t telling me the full story. He always gaslights me but turns out he just does that to deter him from getting caught cheating …Turns out her and I have the same story just that mine is currently. I always said I would never cheat.. but this time ..this one time.. Iam getting my lick back he’s cheated (yes I stayed would you rather cry on the street or in a Bentley ) .. I will not be in shelter due to my husband’s negligence as a man . He’s the pretend everything is good in front of others and the kids but behind closed doors he’s so hateful ..he will eat every word and slander he’s called me.. I just started a new job and lied about how much I make hourly so I can save up I also lied and said my credit was bad so nothing can be in my name.. I will ruin his credit and drain his account my kids will live comfortably.. and we don’t have sex at all after my youngest was born .. I get tested frequently just from kissing him most time I just keep my distance.. we don’t sleep in the same bed I will continue pretend Iam fighting for my marriage until Iam full saved up to leave like a thief in the night !! this is my villain era.. Iam reclaiming my time and my peace and my efforts and my life.. I’ve sacrificed so much for him, he’s unfaithful and unfazed by his actions and for him to hate women so much and be so cruel with words is crazy including his own mother !! is truly heartbreaking ..the way he disrespects her and makes her cry is crazy.. Iam sure if you’ve read this far you’re thinking just leave .. well he hides these actions from the kids so they haven’t seen or heard anything (usually arguing happens while they are at school and daycare then we pretend everything is fine in front of them ) but not to worry I’ve created a plan to leave so that my children’s experience of life and comfort will not be affected. I have no family and no friends. it’s a toxic cycle type of marriage and Iam already mentally done .. he takes work frustration out by constantly yelling and telling me to stop crying like a bitch ass female .. sir are you gay? Because how else is a wife supposed to act when her man treats her like shit. Always a comparison , no intimacy , no love , not even willingness to listen or even be friends at the least ..most of the time he will say he feels bad after an emotional episode of him cursing me out for things such as putting the toilet paper roll backwards or eating 4 Oreos instead of 1…and gives me the card to go shopping ..I get what I need for the kids and I have a storage unit of things for my new apartment (when the time comes) and his hateful ass has no clue lol This is really a vent sesh. I know two wrongs don’t make a right but hell burns hot when a women is scorned. Iam going to start over my way.. 🙂 tired of reading stories of women not fighting back.. not having a exit plan (with the exception of life threatening situations then of course don’t stay) but for the ones who are not in danger just being treated poorly by an unfaithful man who thinks he can buy his wife back but then gaslights as an excuse to be unfaithful hit ..them …where it hurts .HELLOOO.. I wasted my youth trying to change a man who stayed a boy..when it gets to the point my own mother In law says “Iam sorry he’s so disrespectful if you end up leaving him you can always stay with me (regardless she’s awesome btw) I won’t stay with her but that’s just context on the undeniable point of disrespect.. did I mention he was high ranking in the military .. yea ladies don’t do it . I was once depressed desperately trying to save my marriage and hope my husband changes or even just trying to communicate and be on good terms ..doubtful of if I was attractive or not .. I was broke down … but I told myself this is not my end game and although cheating is really the best answer it damn well feels good ..now Iam getting dicked down by a man that last longer than 3 mins and knocks the Mario coins off my back and is so respectful and funny and kind and it may not last forever but this is where I am right now ..and while my husband is enjoying cheating and belittling me Iam getting my new life ready . thanks for reading this felt so good to release .