I’m really struggling. I have a 2 year old and 5.5 month old boys. I find myself getting very upset over small things, like today, my baby didn’t want to take his nap and was up for 4 hours instead of his usual 2. So I decide we are going for a drive so he’ll fall asleep. I get myself ready, get baby ready. Go to get my toddler ready and of course he’s being silly and isn’t listening that’s what toddlers do. He starts throwing himself around on the couch while I’m trying to get his pants on and slides so far down he falls and bangs his head on the floor. So now he’s screaming, I’m yelling at him because “I told you to lay down so I could get you dressed!” Not even acknowledging the fact that he was hurt and in distress. My baby has been crying the entire time I’m trying to get my toddler ready.
I say screw it we aren’t leaving the house anymore. I run outside and turn off the car, slam my car door. Come inside, slam the front door, I’m fuming (and why?) My toddler is still crying. I try to console him. I say do you wanna go lay down for your nap? He says noooo, eat so I go into the kitchen and open the cupboard and fridge and say here’s food pick what you want and stop crying.
Fast forward to all 3 of us bawling, I finally get my baby asleep. Now I’m sitting here writing this, nap trapped in my bed with my baby asleep in my arms and my toddler afraid of me and hiding in the living room watching tv.
I feel like the most awful mom. I love my boys so much. But why do I get like this sometimes? Why do some things make me so upset? Could it be postpartum depression? Please no harsh comments. I KNOW the way I handled everything was completely wrong and I’m going to apologize to my toddler.
If you made it this far thank you so much. I really need some advice and help
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6 months PP with my first baby! And I definitely struggle with getting angry at little things all the time. Mostly things that could wake my daughter up from a nap or sleeping. I think I'm so desperate to have some me time that if someone ruins it I get mad. You're doing great though Mama. Some days are harder than others. It can be quite frustrating when you have a plan in your head and it doesn't go the way you thought. Just step back and breathe. I think learning to adapt has been one of the hardest things for me. When you have kids you never know what to expect. It will be okay though.

Are you able to sleep enough? Do you have some help? Do you ever get a break?
Sounds to me like you are exhausted. If I was taking care of my baby on my own non stop I would go crazy. And I do not have a toddler, just one good, happy baby,

PP rage is actually very normal and a symptom of PPA. I highly recommend talking with your doctor, this was one of my main symptoms of PPA (didn’t have PPD) and a small dosage of Zoloft has been life changing for me. You don’t have to feel this way!
Mom of 3 here. I didn’t realize what it was with my first until way down the road. I immediately talked with my OB during both of my subsequent pregnancies and post deliveries.

I understand, trust me. I struggled with PPD when I first had my son, who is almost 7 months old now. It was the first baby I'd ever been around, held, taken care of, and I didn't know just HOW stressful it'd be. I remember yelling, "Dude! Please stop!" Half awake when he was a newborn. Things have gotten a lot better as I've become more patient. I have a history of depression and anxiety, so it definitely heightened when he was born. Seek affordable help, or if you have state insurance, that's even better! You can talk to your OB, primary care provider, or even your son's pediatrician about how you're feeling, and they can recommend some places. You're not alone! Just try to give yourself and your kiddos more grace.

I’m in same boat, I have a 6 year with adhd , a 4 year old , and 4 month old and I get angry so easily lately and then I feel guilty and sad
I’m not able to leave my baby though :/ he’s 5.5 months old breastfed and refuses bottles. We’ve tried 7 different ones and he won’t take any whether it has breastmilk or formula
you hit the nail on the head. I’ve been up and down over 20 times A NIGHT with him for the past 3 weeks because he’s cutting teeth and needs comforted. I don’t get a break from him at all not even at night because of his constant wakings. My husband is on call for work so from sun up to sun down (and throughout the night) baby is my responsibility so literally 24/7. I’ve fed him his whole life (breastfed) never had a bottle, won’t take one. I am absolutely exhausted. Tired of doing it all alone. Ready for something to give.

I am in the same boat.. mama I feel your struggle. 😪. My 6 month old never took a bottle or pacifier.. she’s always on me so I can feed her. I have 6 year old who is a bit helpful but I always get angry at her when my 6 month old is crying and then I feel so sad about it. There’s been multiple times that I have apologized to my 6 year old. My husband work almost all day so I’m with the kids 24/7.. never get a break. It’s really hard. I tend to forget what I’m doing at times or what i need to do.
When my doctor asks me if I PPD I say no.. but in reality I’m going through so much & need help. If you like you could message me & we can talk and let everything out that you need to..