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My Mother In Law Said What?!

Troubles with my own Mother & depression

Hey mamas,
So this isn’t about my MIL it’s about my own mother and my “mother wound”. Posting here and anon as I really just want to hear from others, see others point of view and what not.

So long story short, my own mother wasn’t the nurturing type. I don’t remember ever being close to her, in my younger years I remember loving her but I was afraid of her as I would get hit when I was a kid. In my teenage years I resented her, then our relationship settled for a while as it became very “surface level”… then after I got married there was turmoil again. This turmoil really ramped after I had my baby who is now 2 yrs old… my mother doesn’t respect the way I parent. She will argue about anything that I do, for example - I say no sweets, she will get mad at me then proceed to give my child sweets on an empty belly.
She is never there was for, post partum or anything like that but then calls my baby HER baby. I have even heard her calling herself MOM to my child a few times, she quickly corrects herself when she does this.

When I leave to go home, I have depression for the next couple of days. I mope around, lay in bed and cry.
Why is she so loving to my daughter but could never give me the same love? Why is she not there for me? Why does she treat me differently to her other daughters?

How do I navigate this?
Do I cut her off?
It’s been 2 days since I have seen her and I cannot function, I haven’t stopped crying.