7 weeks pregnant and beyond depressed.

hey im julissa, i currently have a 10 year old and a 5 year old, I stopped dating men roughly after my son father, (5 years ago) and been with a woman every since. Recently my girlfriend and i had broke up requiring me to move from ATL back home to NY. I enjoyed a fun night out since i didnt have my son. Upon getting home, completely discombobulated and disoriented my mom suggest i ride with her to pick up my son from his father. Although i didnt want to, i was carelessly out of it and wasnt gonna be the one driving figured id go to sleep in the car. Upon getting there my mom tells me to go retrieve my son, again im not even in my right state don’t even remember how i got out the car. Long story short, upon me going inside trying to gather my son my mom pulls off. Im really out of it so I sat on the couch and to my now knowledge dozed off. LONG STORY SHORT weeks go by and no period but im not really thinking anything just February was a short month maybe its late. To my surprise I found out i was pregnant. My son’s father literally took advantage of me in a vulnerable moment. Pulls my pants down, ejaculates inside me, then when I tell him like hey? wtf im pregnant he’s all scared and tryna tell me to get a abortion? But im the one who has to answer to God, you took advantage of me while I was out of my clear state then wanna pressure me to kill a baby. Not to mention my girlfriend hates me now and I just feel so alone over something I didn’t do or wanted I already had 1 abortion after my son and i still feel like God is disappointed in me because of that, So i tread getting another one. Plus it took an emotional toll on me for years I still cry when i to k about what i have done. I just don’t know what to do

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First off— in my personal belief I don’t think God punishes us for abortions, it’s most likely your religious guilt making you feel that way. Second, if you and your girlfriend were broken up you did not cheat on her and you are very vulnerable and she should not be making this hard on you ESPECIALLY since you were sexually assaulted. I know you most likely won’t press charges against your son’s father but please please at least make some boundaries with him and tell him you’re not comfortable being alone with him as he sexually assaulted you. Because that it what happened, no matter how he tries to spin it. I am so sorry this happened to you. If you truly think you don’t want to have anymore kids then I would get the abortion because your child will intuitively know you didn’t want them. Don’t let your girlfriends or sons fathers emotions influence your decision. Take some time and think about what you truly want. Abortions are very difficult to get through emotionally and physically

Pt 2. — but you need to do what is best for you and your children. Please feel free to message me I would be happy to help you through this very difficult time

I’m so sorry you’re in this situation. Please just realize this isn’t your doing, but from the way you are talking I don’t think you want an abortion. Dad is already not in the main picture anymore so it’s your choice at the end of the day. I can honestly hear you need both a friend who won’t judge you and a good therapist. Reach out to me if you just need to talk (I don’t have your experiences, but I’m more than happy to listen). ♥️

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