My MIL wont shut up about my daughters eyes
MIL is upset because my daughter doesnt have colored eyes and needs to mention it everytime we see them. For context, my husband has blue eyes and my son has blue eyes. I have hazel eyes and my daughter has dark hazel eyes, almost brown.
My daughter will be 2 yrs old in a couple weeks. Since the day she was born, MIL has been obsessed with the fact that she doesnt have blue or green eyes. She bring her to the light to see if she can see some color. She jokes and says theyre starting to become greenish blue i see it.
Today we went over for lunch, she said: its crazy how she got the dark eyes gene. But she said it in a condescending, pitiful way, as if my daughter is not as pretty because her eyes are brown.
She is also so sensitive and a drama queen, if i say something she will start acting as a victim. So i just shut up, but it really bothers me that she sees my daughter as less because of her eye color.
Help
I’m posting anonymously because I’m honestly embarrassed and don’t really know who else to ask. I’m a young mom to a 6-month-old, and I feel like I’m completely drowning right now.
My daughter’s dad and I have been going through a really painful separation. We’ve gone back and forth between trying to fix things and realizing that things may never be healthy between us. There has been a lot of hurt, resentment, broken trust, arguing and feeling like I’ve been replaced. I still care about him, but at the same time I feel like I’ve lost so much respect for the way certain things have been handled. It’s exhausting trying to coparent with someone while also grieving the relationship and still being emotionally attached.
I feel like I’m constantly trying to prove that I’m growing, apologizing and fixing everything, while also taking care of our baby and trying to keep my own life together. I’m currently behind on bills and waiting on money that was supposed to be deposited. I’m trying to figure out rent, childcare, work and how to provide for my daughter, and it feels like everything is falling apart at the same time.
Lately I’ve been feeling incredibly hopeless, numb and overwhelmed. I love my daughter more than anything, and she is the reason I keep pushing, but I’m scared that I’m not strong enough to keep carrying all of this by myself. I feel guilty for even admitting that because I know she deserves a mom who has it together, but I genuinely feel like I’m running on empty.
I’m not looking for judgment, relationship bashing or people telling me to “just leave and move on.” I’m looking for advice from moms who have been through a painful breakup, financial hardship and postpartum emotions all at once. How did you rebuild your life? How did you emotionally detach while still having to coparent? How did you stop feeling like your whole future was gone? And are there any resources for struggling moms that actually helped you?
Please be kind. It took a lot for me to post this.