Im 40 and lost

You are tired. Can you take a few days and a trip with friends alone? What are your own hobbies? What life did you like more? Childfree?

I know this feeling

You have a good life but it doesn’t sound like you’ve found something that gives you purpose, passion, goals, OUTSIDE of motherhood. New years is coming up- make yourself a bucket/goals list like I do for myself every year. What do you want to do for YOU? That helps you thrive and grow as a woman, as a person, as you- not Mum wife daughter sister. YOU. Is there something you used to do that you wanna continue? Or start something new? Are you envious of others that they can do something well? I turned that envy into motivation and inspiration. I envied girls that could dance salsa well. And for years I was going to Latin events and festivals just enjoying the vibe and music and food but I wished I could dance. And I took up dance 4yrs ago and that has rocketed my life in so many ways, also gave me more confidence. We are all on autopilot until we find something that we can immerse ourselves into in our free time. Whatever hobby you get into- you will make friends there I promise.

Unfortunately I don't have any advice for you but I know how you feel. I'm 41 with 3 kids. My marriage just ended. I have bipolar 2, adhd, ocd, ptsd. I'm a lot to handle. I can be very draining. I've made a lot of bad choices that's caused my marriage to end. They've also severed my relationship with my kids. I'm working on trying to rebuild my relationship with my kids but unfortunately it's too late to rebuild it with my husband. I feel lost. I feel stuck. I've tried therapy and medication to help my mood, impulsively. It helps some but it's not a cure. I want to change. I hate acting and feeling this way. I sometimes feel like I am incapable of changing. It's like I know that I'm spiraling but I can't stop it. I have no idea where to go and what to do from here.