I'm so bored and it fucking sucks and im tried of hearing myself say it

Every single day is the same I wake up I sit in bed by my husband for a little while until he showers I get him ready for work during the day and then off he leaves out the door gone and I'm alone with our baby all day

and I'm sure it's the same for some women on here too that they are all alone everyday all day not a single soul checks in on them

that's me and my story alone and tired of it and sitting on the edge ready to jump

I am so tired of waking up every day and seeing the same stuff and doing the same every week just in rotation on what we do per day, go to the library, go to the park, go to the splash pad, go play in our pool outside, go play with our toys outside, play with the indoor toys go water our garden, make a cake, bake anything else anything you could think of is just on a rotation and I am so tired of living on a rotation It's only been 2 years my kid is only 2 years old and I'm so tired and so bored and so alone

I feel like I sound stupid when trying to talk to an adult because I'm saying shhi like ouchie and boo boo and I for the life of me am digging around for the right adult words and it takes me a good minute and its fucking embarrassing

I'm sick of them shoving toys in my face after repeatedly telling them no, stop, I don't like that, move it away, put it down

Tired of being followed around like momma goose I just want to pee once alone with out hearing clattering in the kitchen drawer something falling over or his personal favorite screaming crying and shaking the door until I come out and he acts like it never happened and starts pulling me along to the toys

I'm beginning to get so sick of it and hate anyone everyone else that has a life or gets out without their kids and says "oh just give them to daddy and take a spa day for yourself" " go get a haircut you'll feel so much better"

I can't because he calls me back in a few hours wondering what im doing and when I'll be back because hes tired A FEW HOURS im with them all day everyday and I don't have money anyway he makes it and I make it stretch even now as I write this i have 4 cents in my bank account and 25 in cash for the next 7 days and need to make sure we all eat every night

Its all a mess and so am I covered in tears but I just needed to let some of my stresses out especially with how shitty in feeling right now being alone and hopefully someone will have something nice or helpful to say

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feel free to msg me, love! motherhood is truly lonely and it’s not talked about enough. tons of other moms are going through the same thing right now! i don’t have a ton of advice but i’d love to talk to at least get your mind off things🩷🩷

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So go out without the baby. Or do date night.

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Ignore him when he calls

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Get a Saturday job

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i litteraly can't go out anymore with or without baby because we have no money. I haven't been on a date with him since the first 8 months of my babies life

Yes I am the one that manages it but I manage it in a sense that I won't be on the street with my kid instead of making sure we're all entertained and having enough fun pictures to boast and post about

And its not like he isn't working hard for it, he is beaten bruised and sunburned when he comes home he just isn't paid what he's worth and can't find another decent person to hire him AND pay what hes worth ( not that this is our fault its just a shitty world)

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And while I have thought about a side job that I could work while he is working ( I can't find one, I've been looking since pregnancy) or even getting a part time at a Wendy's for Christ sake 🙄

I wouldn't be making enough to make a difference to us because of drive time or taxes being taken and as he works 6 days out of 7 that leaves me with the 7th day to do a -one day get out of the house job- and miss my husband's only day off to spend with us

All in all it fucking blows

And while it would potentially solve my loneliness (having a job) its taking away the select time I get to spend with my whole family there's no telling if this job really would do me good or crush me harder

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I am so sorry you’re going through this. Maybe you can befriend another SAHM on here and y’all could team up. You can watch both babies for 1 day and then she can watch them the next day. If you do that each week, then it gives you at least 1 day for yourself

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i used to have am amazing friend i met on here and we even lived close enough to visit each other's houses it was magical ..... until it wasn't

She needed to move away we all have our own reasons for needing a move but we'll just say it just wasn't in the cards for them to stay

And now we're coming up on the 7th month since and we've both changed, she has gone back to her home town with so so so many friends and family its a hassle to get to the phone to ask how I am anymore on top of all her kids and house duties and im left here with crickets and an emptiness that feels like being abandoned ( just how I feel I know im not) but it just hurts it gave me hope for a little while that I could do this and I wouldn't be alone but im alone again and struggling to find a new local friend which has never been easy for me

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I've been doing the same thing, on a loop for years 😭 and I'm so tired of it. I work weekends and that used to be my time to "reset" mentally but I haven't worked the past 4 weekends so I'm feeling extra sad, extra board and extraaaa broke! Lol. So now even the same ole things we do every day for "fun" outside the house can't be done because I don't have the money to do them. I'm going stir crazy. My only friend lives 4hrs away and I'm lucky if we talk once a week. If I don't find childcare and a full time job soon I'm going to go bananas 😅
I don't have any advice unfortunately but I just wanted to share and let you know that you're not alone 💜 I'm here if you want to message

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Aye on the low, smoking some 🍃 really chills you out and Gives you patience and you enjoy everything around you so much more. De-stresses you too. Maybe try it? I haven’t done it in two years for personal reasons but I still crave it sometimes. It definitely helps a lot. Don’t come at me, I’m just saying. Could help a lot. 😌

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Or edibles 😅

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zero hate or backlash i already smoke and have been a smoker for years im just quitting and have been the past few months ttc

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