Miss my spouse

I miss my wife. I miss how during this pregnancy (our first) we were so in sync and everything felt possible. I miss lying in bed together. I miss the early post partum days where it was the 3 of us in our own little world. I miss not worrying she resents me for staying home with the baby while she works overtime and I'm still remote job hunting. I miss feeling like a partner and not a burden. I miss being able to support my wife in her dreams without worrying about money. I miss knowing our marriage was rock solid instead of scared im losing the love of my life as I lay in bed watching a proposal on a show on my phone that sets me spiraling into tears alone. I miss knowing everything was going to be okay. I wouldn't trade our daughter for anything. But fuck this is hard.

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SMP

Am I being out of order to my partner?
I have just received my first months SMP pay.
We knew things were going to be tight for paying bills. So to help out financially I have done extra work this month at a second job to help pay a little extra towards bills and to be able to have some extra cash for day to day life.
I must’ve work well this month as I have nearly enough to cover half of our joint bills. However my partner is now saying that I can pay everything I have towards our bills leaving me with nothing, but he can’t spare the extra £200 difference because he can’t afford it 🤯

I’m sorry but I’m feeling this is really out of order and unfair? Firstly I have been out and worked my butt off in a manual labour job, whilst looking after our now 7 month old baby to earn this money to help our family through the next 3 months only to have to carry on paying my usual share of the bills leaving me with absolutely nothing 😤

He can’t see why I have and issue and why I feel so disappointed in his lack of help.

Like am I just too old school in my thinking that a man should be providing for his family?
At this point I feel like I should just return to my full time job and figure out how to juggle working full time whilst looking after our child as she doesn’t go to nursery until January

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jobs??

how are we finding jobs that allow babies nowadays i dont wanna leave my baby but in this economy its so hard getting by!! and i dont wanna leave her with anyone else help!!

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Is it selfish to miss my old lifestyle as a single mom?

As a single mom, I've had to change a lot about how I live and what I do. Sometimes I miss my old routines like traveling, camping, or staying out late, and I wonder if it’s selfish to feel that way now that my life revolves around my child. Has anyone else felt this way, and how do you cope with those feelings?

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