Overwhelmed and feeling alone

Recently I feel a real sense of frustration at how uneven things are between me and my husband but I may be being unfair. My husband works full time and one day a week from home, I’m on maternity with our 5 month old.
I put her down for all daytime naps even at weekends and I do all nights even at weekends. We both do bottles and nappies. My husband sleeps in a separate room. I feel like this is a huge amount of responsibility and stress on me and it leaves me exhausted but then he does work so am I being unreasonable?! My husband used to wake early on a Saturday and sunday e.g 5.30 come and get the baby and I’d sleep until 9. Over the last few weeks it’s got later, rather than waking early especially he now wakes at his usual time of 7am and then comes and gets her. It frustrates me as it feels like all sacrifices are made by me, 7 am is not that early considering I’ve done the whole night …again I worry I’m being unreasonable . He’s very good at saying things like ‘at some point I’ll have to learn how to put her down for naps’ but then does nothing to actually try or instigate it. He also tells me to not get frustrated and I’m not doing anything wrong e.g when she is fighting sleep and I get very upset and cry or fighting her naps and he’s genuinely trying to make me feel better but it annoys me because it affects me and not him because he’s not involved in any of the sleep stuff …..

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Bad parent 🤷‍♀️

So my 4yr old didn’t want to eat her dinner so I stopped her from going trick or treating. Now her dad’s pissed at me because she was so excited about going. I’m sorry but I’m not rewarding her with sweets when she’s refusing to eat her dinner. Then my mum said you could have still taken her but taken the sweet off her until she eats her dinner. No thanks I’m not dealing with tantrums after tantrums.

I feel like I’m falling apart - partner doesn’t seem to want to help. This is a long one…

I’m ftm with baby girl who’s 9 weeks, I’m 23 and my partner is 25, we haven’t been together very long like I found out I was pregnant only months into our relationship. We moved in together when I was about 36 weeks pregnant and ever since then I’ve just felt like his mother - it’s like he is incapable of doing anything. And I should’ve seen this coming because the way he lived in his rental before he moved into my apartment was honestly disgraceful it was so disgusting. I do his washing, I’m constantly picking up after him, I’m the only one who cleans EVER, I cook for him etc and he just doesn’t seem to care or want to help. I know he realises what a burden it is on me, I also have two cats which I’ve had for years and years and sometimes I need help with them when I have my hands full with the baby but he just doesn’t care at all. Not to even mention the baby, now that he’s back at work full time he doesn’t do anything to help with baby girl, I breastfeed but give her a bottle of formula before bed (I pump) so that she sleeps a little longer so I stay sane. He used to sort of help out in the early days but now he’s always “too tired” even though he soundly sleeps for 6/7 hrs a night while I’m up pumping while trying to feed her, doing all the nappy changes, soothing her etc. I ask him to take her once every night so I can shower and clean the kitchen after dinner, I speed do everything but he just shoves a dummy in her mouth and scrolls reels - she cries the whole time. I don’t think I’ve had a hot drink or meal since the hospital. I’m at my wits end (if you can’t tell) and honestly my life would be easier if he wasn’t living with me. I have come to resent him so much, and, I know this post is getting long and rambly, but I’m not even close to finished with everything 😔 He also pressures me for sex almost every night and grabs me when I’m clearly busy holding the baby and doing stuff like washing or dishes, it really irritates me and I’ve told him I’m not ready to have sex, not that I even want to AT ALL. But he keeps on pushing. He also drinks every single night and then spends all night snoring and waking baby girl up. I honestly can’t do it anymore I feel like taking the baby and my two cats and leaving like I’d rather sleep in my car with them at this point. He also smokes weed every night and before baby girl was born I told him he can’t live here with me if he’s smoking and I’ve tried to kick him out for it/gotten angry and upset but he doesn’t care at all he continues to do it and go out drinking and smoking with his mates when he knows I’m at home alone struggling to keep my house running and in order with a baby who’s extremely attached to me (because she’s never spent quality time with her father presumably). Do I just kick him out/end the relationship? I do still have love for him and I remember the days before I was pregnant with him where we loved eachother so so much. Maybe it’s too far gone now and it’s not fixable. The issue is I’ve voiced all of this with him and he just doesn’t change.

Halloween

Its my baby's first halloween and I feel sooooo guilty, I haven't dressed him up no trick or treating, nothing. I just feel like there is no point as he isn't even 1 yet, but now he is asleep in bed, I feel as though I ahould have taken at least a photo of him in some type of costume. All I can think is what if he asks me in the future what we done and honestly, we done fuck all for it. He was in bed by 6, no sweet treats, no decorations, nothing. Am I bad for doing this to him? I really just don't see the point as he cant even say anything other then mama and dada. How do I get past this guilt

MIL Bonding Time

MIL wants more one on one time with our 6 month old. Let her watch him while I worked from home and she brought over a latex balloon for him to play with (fought me on that when I asked her to not let him play with it), found her belt in the playpen and popsicle stick contraption with a dumdum lollipop attached on our kitchen counter.

Do I trust her to watch him unsupervised? 🤔